Dream Sequence #_____

February 18, 2015 8:00-8:40 AM

I have been terrible at recording my dreams these past few months. I’m starting to get back on track however.

              This sequence starts at the beach and there are few people there. There seems to be something happening and I seem to be leading a group of people. The day setting Is about late afternoon with a bright cloudy day. I’m standing on a hill looking down onto the shoreline and that’s when three Hispanic guys appear riding upon black horses. I stand firm and stalk towards the shore line with my second in command in tow-which seems to be my boyfriend-and stare down the leader of the trio. It seems to be an unspoken rule that we cannot physically touch each other so in order to fight it Is to be done in another way.

The two lackeys behind the leader then pull out tennis balls and start to throw them at me. I am unfazed as they just graze past me-it feels like a taunt-and my second in command lashes out at them. Still staring down at the leader, our stare down is broken when something in the distance happens. It seems there is a beach house and I go to check it out as its closest to my ‘territory’ and where the rest of my group was. I run towards this secluded beach house thats near the entrance of the beach and I notice theres another Hispanic guy. It seems that this guy is the actual leader but there is something wrong with him. He’s a bit deranged.

Coming at me, he tries to physically fight me but there is some sort of unspoken rule that in this sequence physical contact is not allowed. However he is coming at me with froth coming out his mouth and eyes wide open. At this point, there is no sense of holding back so he throws a punch at me and I eventually get him down and grapple his leg. I twist and immobilize it while he screams. The trio on the horses then appear as well as my boyfriend and they separate us and drag me back down to the shoreline. It is then that I see a team of people run towards the house and I see them douse his body in gas and light it on fire.

Back at the shoreline, there seems to be an understanding between me and the trio of horsemen when I see something coming towards us from the water. Backing up, I signal towards everyone and we all run towards the opposite end of the beach as the water starts to glow red.

I wake up.

Dream Sequence #____

Tuesday, November 4th, 2014

Waking up, theres only a few things that I remember. After brushing my teeth its a little less so.

The setting is a beach setting in which theres a whole group of people. Classmates it seems to be like. Victoria Sin is apparently there with me. Prominent members seem to be her, a hispanic boy thats a little taller than me, two caucasian girls with amber brunette and blonde hair. The rest are just blurs. I remember that we’re all sitting at the beach in an area with stone tiling as the floor and there are street lights surrounding it. Its starting to become late evening and everyone starts to leave. In the distance, clouds seem to be rolling in.

In general, I was set apart from the group doing and handling my own things. I wasnt really spoken to. In the end however, I go to help Victoria out and the hispanic boy comes up to me and starts preaching about how he tried so hard to line everyones schedules up and whatnot. To me it was more of a jab at myself for not partaking in whatever activities happened and not participating. It didnt bother me too much but how he was saying it was grating me. Mocking. I retaliate by telling him to deal with it. To stop being a pussy ass bitch. But all the while hes smiling towards me and starts to walk away. He brushes past me and makes a sort of fingure gesture before half the group walks away with him. I turn towards the two girls and notice that the other half of the group is walking in the opposite direction to where the light was setting. I looked down and noticed that a bag and a hat were left forgotten and I looked up to see who forgotten it. The girl with the amber brunette hair did so I scooped it up and gave it back.

There was something before the end of this dream however I do not recall it.

Life Thought #__

I’ve been slacking in terms of getting up in the morning. I must really be tired. Or I just refuse to go to bed at night. Apparently I’ve always been a night owl and didnt know what was day and what was night when I was younger. Thats funny to think about really.

I just know that I’ve been drifting here and there within space. I’ll eventually visit Earth at some point.

Probably when Im hungry.

Yeah most definitely when Im hungry.

Life Thought #___

I wonder if it’d be possible to install a hammock into my attic. This weather right now is amazing but theres no trees in my vicinity to pitch up a hammock. And I dont really want to mess around with the hammocks that have stands with them. My attic lets in a lot of light and birds tend to nest in the vent so theres a lot of doves up there.

Maybe I can turn the garage into something . Hmm. Outside studio perhaps. Sometimes working on the computer drives me insane when theres nice weather outside.

 

Self Thought #____

I pretty much have two levels of anger.

Lowly petty anger that lasts for moments.

And the full fledged silent anger thats mind wracking.

Just. Too much shit is piling on me this week its fucking ridiculous.

Working Thought #___

I’m actually fairly pumped with the project idea that I’ve come up with. However, with how this exact project is going my project ITSELF may not be chosen to be actually done.

I’m not going to lie though. I hope people like my idea enough to vote for it. Because goddamit its a fun idea to play with.

Maybe people are right. Maybe I could be a cooky crazy director.

Working thought #___

Ive always wondered what I could achieve when I do things without thinking. Its an interesting experience.

I did enjoy the idea that came out of it. For a project, I completely redid a concept a day or so before the due date. It wasnt until the day before that I actually cranked it out. When it started to actually flow. And you know what. It was much better than I expected. And Im quite happy with what happened.

Project Ramble #__

I really have to wonder why I do these things to myself haha. I’m generally really ambitious when it comes to projects. At least in terms of coming up with the idea. The idea is generally something that its far too big for such a small amount of time.

Well I shouldnt say it like that. Theres just alot of effort put into the idea usually. And its not the fact that its hard exactly, its just I tend to forget that yes the idea is swell and itd be great to work on, but it wouldnt be the only idea that I’d have to be working on at that same time. Seperately I would be fine. But to have a class of these ambitious projects all at once is mind blowing.

I still continuously do it and from it its like a mesh of stress, pressure, procrastination, and testing ones patience.

I dont know what to do with myself sometimes haha. Man.

Video Thoughts

For a video project that I am doing, I ventured out into the world of ice and snow.

Well more like snow and melting water. Freezing yet warm. It created some interesting footage nonetheless. And while working on editing I have to say, its been a while…its been a long while since I’ve felt like I did fairly well with what I had to work with. I havent been really satisfied in a bit about my own work. Its a strange feeling. But lovely nonetheless. I’ll have to record my progress and whatnot later. And record some stills.

No really theres something about this piece that I’m really content with. I just have to figure out why and how.

Surrounding Thoughts.

There are differing worlds all in one room. The group in the corner huddled around the laptop watching humorous videos. The couple near the entry way where the girl is going under a panic attack. The man in the corner whose wallet is lost and hes starving with his head down. Myself on the laptop working to get things done. Listening. Ever so listening. Its almost surreal. The duality of the two.

Hes talking to himself. A pep talk to calm down. Hes hungry.

She had to walk away. She was getting ill from being in a room with people. Her loved one could not help. Only take her to a quieter place. Interestingly enough,  the hungry one was empathetic to what she was going through. He has a syndrome.

The group in the corner is going about laughing and giggling at the laptop screen. Ignoring, or even just not even aware of whats happening behind them. In all honesty they probably did not hear his plea for money to get food. He says that he is a man of his word and will pay me back. I just tell him not to worry about it. There was an interesting notion when he mumbles that this is what it must feel like to be completely broke.

How very interesting.